Why am I gay?

That was a questions asked at my favorite site and I have been thinking about it ever since. Trust Anita http://www.sisterfriends-together.org/, Joni http://gotauthenticity.blogspot.com/, and Lindsey http://emphaticasterisk.com/, to give me food for thought that lasts for days. Thanks ladies, hats off to all of you.

But back to the original question. Some people claim that I am gay because it was an accident. I have to admit that this may seem to be a bit sacrilegious, but it is only whimsical thinking on my part.

Picture it, Sicily 1942, oops I think that is from an old TV show, remember the Golden Girls? Sorry Sophia.  I tend to ramble but back to my story. I have pictured this scene in my head a hundred times. I picture God standing there gathering all of the parts he needs to make another human, the soul is in place, the height, the gender, the eye color. Since all humans have both feminine and masculine qualities, God is standing there with a scoop of each in his hands. He is slowly and carefully mixing them into this new being and St Peter walks by and bumps his arm. I can just hear it now. “Thanks a lot St. Peter. Look at what you made me do. You made me pour all these feminine qualities into this poor man. Now I am going to have to make him one of those homosexuals because no one would believe he was straight now.” I can see St. Peter hanging his head at the rebuff. “Why are you so clumsy? You do this to me all the time, what, can’t I even get 10 people put together without you making me mess one up?”

So no I don’t think I am an oops or accident. I can picture God lovingly gathering together all of the separate parts that make me whole and willingly and knowingly giving me a homosexual orientation. So since I am not an accident, I must have had some terrible childhood experience that “turned” me gay.

Yes, I admit that I did have trauma in my childhood, but when I volunteered at the sexual assault center, it still averaged out to the same stats as the population in general.  About 1 in 10 people are gay.  Irregardless of life experiences.  My sister and I both grew up in the same house and experienced the same things and she is straight, while I go “gay”ly forward.  So if not by trauma or life experiences, then it must be from ignorance of the scriptures.

I will be the first to admit that I am not well versed in the scriptures.  I can’t spout them from memory or tell you exactly where each scripture is found, but I am not ignorant of the scriptures.  And it is funny that once I came out, I have been well informed about Leviticus and Romans et al.  And if you hold them in high regards, then I will never change your mind.  But I don’t give them any more power than the rest of the scriptures.  Say the ones that talk about love and compassion.  So I agree to disagree on this point.

So maybe it is just this:

“I believe we are who we are and that we love who we love, because it’s by God’s design and for God’s purpose we’re the gay and lesbian, bisexual and transgendered people of God. This is our divine calling; a holy vocation. This is the very way in which God wants us to live in the world and engage with the world, to be queer folks living out the Good News of Christ in wholeness and truth.” 

To read the entire post http://www.sisterfriends-together.org/more-than-ourselves-alone/.